不可救药的爱上你

DearG.J.P.,

Everyday,everymomentthatgoesbyIthinkofyou.Mybraintellsmetogiveup,butmyheartsaysIcan'tstoplovingyou.Ispendalldaydreamingofthemomentyouwouldcalltosayyoufeelthesameway.AsmuchasItrytopretend,thetruthis,Ican'tstoplovingyou.Idon'tknowhowtostop.

Iwillcherishthemomentswehavespenttogether,fromourveryfirstkisstoourlast.Imissthewayyoukissme,thewayyoulookatmeandrubmyface,ImissyoucallingmeMs.Maynard(becauseyouknowitgetsonmynerves),Imissyoumissingme,Imisseverythingaboutyou,Imissourphoneconversationsandthewaywewouldspendhourstalkingaboutourcountriesandthewaywegrewup.ButmostofallImissmybestfriend.

Iwillplacethemomentswe'vesharedtogetherinatimecapsuleandhideitinthemostsecretplaceofmyheart.Andmaybe20yearsfromnow,iforwhenwemeetagain,maybethenwecanbothopenthecapsuletogetherandberemindedofourwonderfulfriendship.

Gosh,mylifestinks!ImeanIfinallymeettherightguyandhe'snotavailable.I'minlovewithyoubutIcan'tbewithyou.

But,I'vegottotellyou,forthefirsttimeinmonthsIcanfinallysmilebecausealthoughyoudidn'tsaymuchthelasttimeyoucalledIknewyoustillcared.

Youcankeepondenyingit,youcankeephidingfromit,buttrustmeyouareonlylyingtoyourself.EverydayIaskmyselfwhy...whydoIfeelthisway?Whycan'tIstoplovingyou?Thenitdawnedonme...youputvoodooonme!Justkidding.

BeforeIgoIwantyoutoknowthatyouwillalwayshaveaspecialplaceinmyheart,andlikeI'vesaidmanytimesbefore,Idonotregretanythingwe'vedone.TheonlythingIregretisyoutellingmeyoulovemebecausesincethenyouhavegivenmenothingbutthecoldshoulders.

Pleasedon'tbescared,Iwantnothingbutyourfriendship,well...IdowantmorebutIamwillingtosettle.Iamnottryingtomakeyoufeelbadorpushyoufurtheraway.Iamjusttryingtomakeyouunderstandwhat'sinmyheart.

Iloveyouwithallmyheart...andIwillalwaysloveyou,G.J.P.

Lovealways,

Melissa